Too Excited To Function.

The days are approaching to my trip to New York. I have been anticipating this trip before TJ even left California :} I have been too excited for words. He's technically only been gone for a week, but we have both agreed it feels longer than a month. Sad. I've been devasted since he's been gone, talking about him to anyone with ears, and it's only been one week. It has gotten to the point where the person doesn't even need to be willing to listen, I will just go on a mindless rant about him. It ridiculous to imagine how a month will be; two, three, and four? I didn't sleep at all last night. Went to Banana Bay for double drinks for Brett's last day with the boys. Stayed for about an hour before coming home around midnight. For some reason I couldn't sleep at all. It was around 5am when TJ was texting me, asking me what time I came home last night. We got into a somewhat serious convo through text as he went to visit his mom in Boston. I really do imagine a very happy, thrilling future with him. He is everything I want and need in my life. He is my bestfriend and lover in every aspect. We started out as best friends, so I'm hoping we can persevere through the struggles of being new lovers. My entire family and friends adore him. Sigh. He says I'm the biggest reason why he's working hard to move back home :{ I really hope it's true. I'm basically working on my goals right now to sortof keep me occupied until he comes home to LA for good next summer. I must be patient, though. I miss him terribly. I really can't wait til Thursday. Two more days.


I played piano for a couple hours until 11am before finally going to sleep. I fell asleep listening to Classical music.


PUBLISHED:
7/4 Fourth of July
7/12 Happy Birthday, Krystal Marie!
7/22 Bullshit
7/30 Viva Las Vegas
8/8 Farewell, Brett