It's been the gloomiest these past few days in California since I've been back. It's been so long since it rained, I almost forgot about how much I love it. The fresh, crisp morning with cold wind piercing your face while you have some hot coffee and a nice morning cigarette as you start your day. Perfection. It's business time. Strenuous. As time gradually progresses to my move in December, it seems just the appropriate time to take care of all business before I part with California and continue my new chapter in New York. Having two more months of fall semester seems tedious taking mediocre classes, but it would be foolish to not finish what I started. These next two months will be filled with financial difficulties, court dates, and medical procedures that I cannot even begin to imagine what will be like. This year to this point has been, to say the least, a hell of roller coaster. Gaining new friendships, losing friendships that, to be honest, shouldn't have been attempted from the get-go, a couple hair color changes, vacationing in San Francisco, Vegas, Palm Springs, New York, and countless hustlin' & bustlin' jobs, and falling in love with the most sweetest, ruthless, compassionate, funniest person I have ever met in my life.. my bestfriend. Thousands of memories made in one year alone. I was in New York with TJ when I got the frantic call from my mother back home to call my doctor. Serious news? but I didn't really care. As soon as I came back to California, surprisingly, I didn't take immediate action to my medical needs. I didn't tell my family or friends what the risk was until after my consultation. The only people who simply knew there was an issue, but not in detail, was my mom and TJ. It's now been about two in a half weeks since I got the first news of my high risk of cancer and the appearance of pre-cancer cells in my body. My family, boyfriend and close friends are aware, and I'm so appreciative of their support and prayers. I'm young, so my hopes is that age will be in my favor. As scary as this is, because I hate all things medical, I'm determined to not let this affect my New York move.
I have all the people I need in my life. No bullshit. No drama. Nothing by respect and fun times. I'll maintain my optimism.
Come December, there will be nothing holding me back anymore. Putting off New York two-three years ago was a blessing in disguise. I've learned (and saved) a lot, and have gotten closer to my family. It saddens me, and concerns me that I'm leaving my mom, (dad), and brother behind, but I have complete faith that they'll be fine without me. Though there were many rocky times and subtle humble moments, my family is the only reason why I would ever return back to California...
..but I'm ready for New York. I have a very important person there waiting for me.
I'm coming home soon, baby.
I have all the people I need in my life. No bullshit. No drama. Nothing by respect and fun times. I'll maintain my optimism.
Come December, there will be nothing holding me back anymore. Putting off New York two-three years ago was a blessing in disguise. I've learned (and saved) a lot, and have gotten closer to my family. It saddens me, and concerns me that I'm leaving my mom, (dad), and brother behind, but I have complete faith that they'll be fine without me. Though there were many rocky times and subtle humble moments, my family is the only reason why I would ever return back to California...
..but I'm ready for New York. I have a very important person there waiting for me.
I'm coming home soon, baby.